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Time:04:18 pm
Hi my name is Daisy im form the Uk, i have some problems which are listed on the front screen, I am trying to lose weight at the moment and i am having college stress due to exams and problems about unicersity. There are issues with my parents whose relationship is going up and down. this really gets to me. Everyone thinks my life is fine but its not.im here to talk 2 people and make some new friends.
I hope it is ok for me to join. I will try and add the links onto my info page. x x
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Time:12:48 pm
seeing as i amnow the sole mod, id like to say:

yayyy i am healed through music and nature and drugs...well, not really drugs. but totally being a write-off fixes everything. haha "fuck everyone" is my motto now, you girls should try it!
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Time:10:24 am
I'm deleting my journal.
bye
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Current Music:Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own//U2
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Time:10:27 pm
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
I need some perfect healing girls....

See I've been trying desperately to lose weight and it's not going so well but I thought I would ask my mom for help since she has had good luck with losing weight in the past. So we were talking about it nicely the other day and it was a really good conversation and she had good ideas and a good plan for me to follow. Well tonight, she came in my room and saw a half eaten sandwich on a plate and was like, "We need to stop with the food..." WHAT?? Is she trying to drive me into an eating disorder? I flipped on her and told her that I just won't eat anything from now on and I'll excercise all the time and told her how much it annoys me when she does that shit. That's why I haven't lost any weight. It's because she finds reasons to stop helping me. Because after I flipped on her, she stormed away and goes, "I give up Leigh. Do whatever you want. I'm done helping you." And I can tell you honestly that she has done something like this every fucking time after she's told me she was going to help me with losing weight. Now what would you do in a situation like this?? I mean am I right in thinking that she's looking for excuses out of helping me or am I just blaming myself for the fact that I have zero willpower?? But I've gotten to the point where I do want to stop eating. I'll just drink tons of water, iced tea and diet coke. I hate being fat and I hate feeling like this. I want to lose weight so bad and be prettier and not have to worry about being out of shape or fitting into clothes. I hate this feeling. But I don't want to develop and eating disorder. Why can't we have both?? Stop eating w/out developing an eating disorder? That would be nice but it doesn't work like that. Fuck this. I need to lose weight. But what am I supposed to do?
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Current Music:What is this Love//Blue Rodeo feat. Sarah McLachlan
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Time:09:24 pm
Current Mood:excitedExcited, going to Cancun-8hrs
Probably the most difficult thing I've ever had to go through was either my depression after getting back from Europe 4 years ago or this depression I've been in for the last 4 months. I don't really get depression but these are the 2 times I've had it really bad. I know it seems so stupid to be depressed about something like getting back from Europe but it really took a toll on me because it was probably the best time I had ever had in my whole life and I really didn't want to be back to my ordinary life. And this last depression I went through, I can't really say why I was. Nothing seemed to make me happy and for that, I was really sad. So I guess it was either a small chemical imbalance or something was bothering me that I haven't really recognized yet. I don't know but it was bad!

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Time:08:20 pm
What is the most difficult thing everyone has had to go through?


Random I know, but please post!
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Time:10:48 pm
Current Mood:gloomygloomy
i don't think this is even something to post about in this community but i just get really stressed about it sometimes and i didn't really feel like complaining in my own journal about it. i rely so much on guys or having a boyfriend. i have no one right now and it's so hard for me. i get really attached to every guy i date, and i mean really really attached. my attachement problems usually ends up fucking up the relationship. i'm trying so hard to find love, honestly all i want is to be in love, and i don't know why i want it so badly. most people can deal with not having it... but it's really all i want in this entire world and i'm unhappy until i have it. this sucks so badddd....


if this post is completely unrelated, feel free to delete it.
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Time:06:57 pm
Hey everyone. I'm new. I know the mod from camp. I have to deal with alot of the things listed where it says what to talk about. I have an eating disorder, have school stress, and parent stress, I kind of fit exactly into all those categories. So yeah. I'm 15 and am here for everybody who wants a friend.
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Subject:ughhhh
Time:11:51 am
Current Mood:frustratedfrustrated
god damnit. life sucks.

story line for those of you who havent heard it out of me alrerady:
We'll start with B. B is trying to juggle so many things in her life she is just getting too confused and is saying, thinking, and doing some very stupid things right now. In particular she is letting what people say get to her. Things like "You're fat" and "your stomach and thighs want to make me puke". ok, OR NOT!! the girls 5' 8" and an ice skater, shes perfectly in shape, gorgeous, and if she were to lose any weight she would be able to keep ice skating and it would be gross! So now she doesnt eat. And she used to eat. Alot. so im worried and i yell at her but its not getting through to her.
ok so now in addition, she's in this fucked up love web with D. They've been best friends since they could crawl, and they've like each other since god knows when, but they have never actually dated, for whatever obscure reason. so now its getting worse, and they both like eachother alot more. D is totally willing to go for, i mean he cares about B, alot. ALOT ALOT. But she's still unsure, and now shes lieing to him to avoid seeing him because she doesnt know what to do when hes around, and he knows shes lieing. so now hes devastated and pissed off, and guess whos caught in the middle, ME.


So every comes to fucking me?!?! What the fuck is up with that?!? How FUCKING SELFISH is that?!?! As if I dont have enough problems in my life, I lest need these two dictating my life with their little screenplay!

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Time:10:28 pm
Can I just say how much I love Erica?

Check out the user info people
Thank you Erica we love youuuu

promote people & update, we have to keep this community going!

love,
your Mod, Mae
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